i have to go

i have to go
i am leaving now
leaving all that's certain
all that's warm

this bed has harboured me too long
too long in dreams i tossed
the sea was rough
i need to get up

i have to go
i am leaving now
leaving the safety of your arms
to sail unchartered waters
whose depth i cannot measure
i will take the chance
drown or swim
i can survive
i know

i have to go
i am leaving now
don't make the parting kiss too long
or i will change my mind
i know
a woman i may be
but the child inside is crying now

i have to go
i am leaving now
don't say goodbye
just use your eyes
and i will carry your scent
and your smile
on me and in me
to carry me over the storms
like a bridge
over a flooding river
i am torn
don't turn around

i have to go
i am leaving now
leaving behind
the soft pillow
the hands
and the arms
that hold me fast
and free me

though
i have to go
in spirit i will still be here
though i am leaving now

you know