burn

you burn
still
i lit you
quite a while ago
i turned the lights out
just so i could see you
and your soft flicker
reflected in the window

where outside
inclement weather
meets this warm window
and i sit and snuggle further
up the couch
the blankets
pillows

and somewhere in me feels safe to know
the wind cannot get in
and blow you out
my source of light
my source of burning
light
a tiny fire
on a wax pillar

but if you burn fast
the melted wax will feed
on you
until you go out
then i will be
in total darkness
just like you
a black smoking
piece of string

looking for a match
to bring it back
to life again
burning
burning too fast
learning
some things
just aren't meant
to last

to light it
is to see it bright
to keep it going
is to feed
and feed again
before the wind comes through

so the burning
catches something else
and spreads the flame
before it gets blown out
behind are embers
from a larger source
that keeps it's centre warm
rest awhile
enjoy the gold red light
the heat
the comfort here
burn
burn true
and don't
go out
again

mother

you have given me life
and nurtured me
in time
i will return this

at the core
you are
and i am your creation

you have set
this sail in me
to travel far and wide

you have
engrained this melody
on me
i sing it every day

you have embedded
this heart in my chest
how it beats
with every pulse
that raises the sun
that pulls the moon
down to me

how grateful am i
to be part of
this great mystery
adored
sheltered
loved

from nothing
you have made me
something
you have cradled me
and now
the spirit home
is found

embarrassment

i walk into the trap and trip
at your feet
i feel so inept and clumsy
afraid to look up
i look forward
walk as fast as my feet
will carry me

i am falling
without arms
to hold me up
face red
and trying not to show emotion
like volcanoes building up
hoping some did not see
how badly i performed

next night i get up
and wait for the trap
to trip me up

once more
embarrassment